Beautiful Disastrous Mess

Journal Entry March 3, 2019

My mood changes like a light switch

Tsunamis all up in my mind

Beautiful disastrous mess —

That’s what I’m gonna call myself

I am beautiful,

But I am also crazy

Sometimes i feel like i could cause a lot of damage to myself

Beautiful disastrous mess

No, i guess that’s what i am

Oh-

No other words to describe me

I feel like it fits, for right now

I mess up everything good that comes to me

I can’t stay happy for long

I will eventually destroy it

I’m beautiful on the outside

But i feel like I’m a mess inside

I try to be my best, be my best, be my best

I’m coming up

The only way is up

My mind is disastrous

I feel like my life will go up in flames

If I don’t control myself

— W. Z. O N E

transmission complete.