The Mourning

Journal Entry April 10, 2021

Last night I sat on the shower floor and shed a few tears.

I shed a few tears in remembrance of the old me.

I shed a few tears as I realized that I would have to say goodbye to this version of myself.

While things were not always good I’m thankful that this version showed me how strong I am.

It’s not an easy feat to battle your mind everyday.

So I thank this version of myself for showing me that I can overcome.

But I am also sad to let this part of myself go.

I’ve become used to this version of myself even though it’s uncomfortable and hard.

I can’t let these thoughts, this illness, rule my life anymore.

I deserve to be better, happy, healthy, and free.

So this is my goodbye.

Even though you were hard to handle and I had to fight hard. Thank you for what you’ve shown me.

But I have to let you go.

You no longer serve me in a healthy way anymore, well you never did.

Never thought I would say this but I love you.

I love you for fighting.

I love you for teaching me.

I’ll carry on the baton now and walk us towards greatness.

I’ll walk us towards freedom.

I’ll continue the journey and I’ll walk us to the woman who we will be.

Goodbye.

— W. Z. T W O

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